Long time

I know it has been a long time. I have been busy with life and other stress. Well here it is. Have you every realized that once you have a love or girlfriend in your life all the old temptations come your way. I have had many opportunities to stray from my relationship in the past few months. There were some very good offers that I turned down. I still don't know if I did the right thing. Where are these girls when I am single and wanting to have fun? When I am single I want nothing more than to explore my sexuality with random new people. The thrill, feel, and uninhibited sex! Then when these things come around I turn them down because I have a girlfriend. Even though the sex with these people would be only sex, not love. They even know about the girlfriend and don't care. Some of the girls even have boyfriends and husbands of their own. My questions is this. I am turning down many good opportunities for nothing? Should I do what is good for me? How will it hurt my girlfriend if she never knows? Just strugglilng to find out what I should do......

Love, Sex and do they have anything to do with each other

Sex we all do it. Some more than others. Why do we put such an emphaisis in life on this brief act. Some of us are addicts to it...myself included...while to others it means only a small part of life. Here is my question. I have had a lot of sex in my life. I have not had a lot of love. So it would seem that sex does not mean you are in love and love doesn't have much to do with sex. Then why are these two things so closely related? Why would someone you love be mad for wanting to have sex with someone you don't. Isn't sex just like any other carnal pleasure we have and indulge in everyday. Such as great tasting foods, a sports game, or other activities that we enjoy doing. And if have sex is enjoyable and is just another carnal pleasure, then why is society saying it is so wrong to take part in it, outside a loving relationship. Or having some carnal pleasures with someone that you are not in love with. I guess it comes down to what you believe and the lessons you have learned in life. To myself I look at it like this...if I am in love with someone then entering into another loving, nurturing, caring, trustful relationship would be wrong. It would be cheating, a violation of the relationships boundaries, and the love you have with each other would be broken. Now sex for the purpose of pleasure and only to fulfil or indulge in carnal pursposes would be fine. I put it to you...is this slanted and am I completely crazy for thinking this way? Or does it make sence and have we been taught to believe in a way....a system, that is flawed, doesnt' work, builds unstable relationships and has an extrememly high divorce rate.

New things

Well this one will be short. This will be new to me and I plan on regularly posting things pertaining to my life. I will dive into my past and eventually my future plans in life. Stay tuned and you might be enlightened, disturbed, or excepting of the things you find out.